HEART STATION

She’s just amazing, to tell y’all the truth. She has this strong voice, and was part of the best best-selling female group ever, Destiny’s Child, but her talent was wasted, since Beyoncé turned Kelly and Michelle into her back vocals, and that was just evil, and that’s why I don’t like Beyoncé that much, I like her as a person, but not as a singer.

Like I always say indirectly, I love songs that I have a past with, and “Dilemma” is one of them, I always used to listened to this amazing duet with Nelly and Kelly Rowland when I went to hotels and all, they always played it in the pool, and all, plus, I listen to it at the radio in 2nd grade, so there, I’ve always loved it!

After her success with “Simply Deep,” she recently released “Ms. Kelly” (Which by the way, is an AWESOME album) in which I listen to all the time, well, actually I listen to both all the time, and one of her songs from “Ms. Kelly” is just SO good that I now consider it my second favorite song, the name of the song is “Love” and I would recommend it to everyone! Just like Beyoncé, Kelly’s most recent album did not sell a whole lot, unfortanately, but fortunately, she’s gonna release a special/deluxe edition! I just love special/deluxe editions and one of the bonus songs in the deluxe edition of “Ms. Kelly” will be “Dilemma” in Japanese!

Even though I love Kelly since I was young, I gotta admit that she’s getting too skinny, and that complicated things in one of her shows, in which she fainted for dehydration, when the big screen behind her showed her face, she was struggling to breathe. Two seconds later, she started to kind of move around dizzily with her hips, and then BAM, she fainted. It was terrible to look at that, she went to the hospital and now she’s alright, which is great! Be careful next time, Kelly!

This weekend, we went to “The Royal Palm Plaza” to celebrate my sister’s birthday, which was yesterday, she invited 6 of her friends to come too, and I gotta tell you, only 3 of these friends are trustworthy, faithful and real friends, the others showed themselves to be either bitchy, jealous, or competitive people, it was hell spending 2 days with them… I don’t mean to talk bad about them, so I won’t identify them… But I’ll tell a little bit about each of the jealous girls:

L: She just makes me angry. She thinks she’s the best, and spent the night ordering room service, and eating from the bar thing in the room, half of the price for both days was all on her. Not to mention that she lived talking bad about all the other girls… As she ordered all the dishes and ate everything in the bar thingy, she disturbed other clients by phoning them and say that their fiancé forgot their underwear at her house or something. She also thinks she knows us when she doesn’t, so she talks bad about us behind our backs, or right in front of us… and ya’ll know what I feel about that.

E: She’s the competitive one. As soon as we got there, she told my mother that her mother would also do her birthday there, and that it must be cheap. My mother’s reply: “Sure, but I don’t think your mother will find it cheap, each room costs R$ 800.” Later on, for her birthday, my sister got a mini Yorkshire named Nina, she’s real cute, but I think that we have enough pets, and my sister’s acting real bitchy with her, I bet that 2 weeks later she won’t even care for her… So, anyways, E phoned her mother right away and asked for a mini yorkshire as well, and to every person that held Nina, she would say that her mother’s buying her one just like that, just trying to steal all the attention.

F: She’s real bitchy. We invited her and she keeps on calling my sister names, shouting at her and slowing all the other girls down. Today, every girl was up, dressed and ready to have breakfast, and she was sleeping, saying that she was tired and needed more sleep, SO DID EVERYBODY ELSE! GET OVER IT! And she also tries to call attention towards her by shouting at everyone and saying she has a crisis, and she’s just SO annoying… First of all, we invited her, we hardly even know her, we were just trying to be polite, and yet, she doesn’t say thank you or anything, she told us that to her, the best part was the dog… THE DOG WASN’T A PART, IT WAS A GIFT…

The other girls were excellent. They always participated, tried to make friends, they were very polite, and they were friends we knew for years and admired, it was only a good weekend because of them, they really were fantastic, they never complained or anything… If my sister wishes to invite anyone else to her next birthday besides them, I’ll eat the other invitations myself.

I don’t know who choses which student will be in each class, although, I do know that whoever this person is, it’s a very cruel and “un-mercyful.” I had classes with Cary since 3rd grade, like I mentioned millions of times, and now, we have NO classes together. In the first day of school, I was all anxious for the schedule because the maximum I expected was one or two classes without one of them, but instead I got 2 classes without Sofy and no classes with Cary.

I also feel like I’m missing a lot in Cary’s life and she’s missing a lot in ours, but we still talk daily, and protect, and proudly remain with our title as “The Triniy,” but still, it just feels odd, telling daily events to each other is not the same as living daily events.

Today, Sofy and I had this hilarious portuguese class, and Cary wasn’t there, and when we told her, it wasn’t 1/1000000 of the fun it had been, I won’t even tell what happened, because it wouldn’t be funny to you people, you’d think we’re stupid, it’s part of our “Trinity-Telepathic-Humor,” and it’s true, I ain’t kiddin’, it’s creepy, Cary, Sofy and I developed this weird telepathic bond in which we say things at the same time, or we say what the other was thinking, and it’s not once or twice, it’s like always.

Yesterday I even developed this strong, out-of-nowhere depression, and I’m telling you, it was very sad, it went until today, before the portuguese class, which cured it… it’s incredible how weird things can cure a terrible case of depression. I’m telling you, it was terrible, I didn’t know what I was sad at, I just brooded, and my attitude became this gloomy thing, I felt like I was dragging my body around, and it came out of nowhere, nothing had happened, the day was going great, and it just striked me…

All this happened and it’s only the beginning of this year, well, we’ll see what’ll happen next, and hopefully, The Trinity will remain how it was since The Golden Ages, and that all this was just an adaption to the drastic change in our schedules.

Some of you know a previous post with the same title from my previous blog, “Heal Over,” but now, as proof of how much people care for my life, I’ll complete it, a little more, with present events, but first, I’ll throw in previous things, already said in “Heal Over.”

I don’t know why, but The Trinity seems to be the center of attention for the whole school, we’re the ones who were attacked by monkeys, we’re the ones who always seem to be friendly and all, but most important, we’re the victims of every rumor, and it’s starting to get me furious, and y’all know how my soul gets troubled, vengeful and heavy when I’m furious.

I’ve been notified that in 6th grade there was a guy who was telling everyone that he saw my report card, and that I wasn’t what everyone thought I was, because he only saw F’s, nothing more, thank God he left school, because if he was still there by the time I knew this, The Trinity wouldn’t have been united because I’d have gone to jail. I’m not furious for the rumor, I’m furious for the fact that he lied, I’m a very intelligent person, everybody knows that, and this fat, short, annoying guy who I hardly ever talked to, tells everyone I had F’s? To his information, I never got an F as a final grade… Unlike him, he was just jealous of me… I guess… Once again: I’m such a celebrity.

Another time was when this girl, Vanessa, made us fight with another girl, Thais, just becuase she was mad with Thais, she wanted to involve us, and why US? that’s what I wanna know, why not the other girls, why Cary, Sofy and I? I dunno, and that really surprised us, since Vanessa was always polite, gentil and friendly towards everyone, until she came up to us and said that whenever we weren’t near, Thais would say how we were only trying to catch attention, and blablabla, we discovered it was all a lie, from Vanessa’s own mouth, well, we’re still friends with her, it’s not worth it anyways, she was angry one day, what’s the deal, right? She’s always been a good friend, but, once again, why us?

Now, here’s the most recent one. There is this boy, in our ex-class, his name is Victor, and he repeated 7th grade, because of being irresponsible throughout the year, only beginning to focus in the last weeks. I never liked him, actually, he bacame this person trapped into a virtual protective shell, isolated from everyone, when some teacher asks us to walk with him, it gets me mad, why us? Ask someone who knows him. If we say anything to him, even a positive thing, and he starts throwing all these thoughtless insults at as us, like we did something wrong. Well, anyways, I felt real bad for him repeating 7th grade, I wold be depressed, desperate and dead in the inside… (Hey, these could be my 3 d’s! Cool!) and everytime I saw him in the halls, I’d say a hello, and all, just for him to feel more comfortable to know that we don’t look at him as the person who repeated 7th grade, just as Victor, the guy who BACK-STABBED ME! Now, he’s telling everyone in his 7th grader-world that I stole something from him, it’s such a fake lie that he doesn’t even tell what I supposedly stole from him, I never talked to him, and everyone knows I’m not a robber, I’m anything BUT a robber, Victor should really think before he says anything like this, I was shocked because I hardly ever knew him, that doesn’t give him any right to do that… After all, I’ve been witness that every single “real” bills he finds in the floor, he says it’s his, even though it’s somebody else’s, HE’S the one wo steals around here, not me… I actually don’t care if he’s in 7th grade or not, what surprised me was the fact that it took him long to repeat, he doesn’t have the greatest grades in the world, nor the attitude, this rumor really got me angry.

These were probably not the only rumors talking about me, or The Trinity, but if there’s something I hate, it’s lying, specially when it’s about me, I just wish I’d know about every rumor about me, so I could explain it’s just a rumor, and open other’s peoples eyes, for them to stop being such idiots, and start to be more mature, and not to believe what untrustworthy people tell them.

The Situation:

The Trinity is in danger. Today, during the class meeting and the elections, Cary and I gathered with Renato and Cassandra in the corner of the class, to talk a little while they counted the votes. As soon as I got there, Renato said: “Alvaro, Cary, (Yep, he called her Cary) Cassandra and I are a ‘Trinitity’” I corrected him, it’s so not a trinitity, it’s a TRINITY! I was enraged by that comment, I understand that Cary is too light-hearted and she’d agree with anything he’d say, especially now that he thinks she’s his best friend. Cary and I considered including Cassandra into The Trinity, since when she walked into school, she was automatically our friend, although it seems weird, it’s very true, but Renato? I don’t think any of us had ever a connection with him, but he is our friend, so we told him to find another group, and maybe form another Trinity.

The Problem:

Talita, Bia, and many other girls involved themselves when they heard our discussion, they started to argue with us that they wanted to be in our Trinity as well, but now, there would be like one million people in it, and it’s more meaningful than that, it’s not supposed to be a class, nor a community, it supposed to be a Trinity, Cary, Alvy and Sofy!

My View:

I think it’s the second time Renato tries to copy us in something when he promissed he wouldn’t do that ever again, and the previous time resulted in The Trinity’s blog being abandoned, he should’ve learned his lesson then. Becoming a Trinity was such a big step in my life, or our lives, and now these bunch of students want to copy us because it’s fun? I find it insulting, it makes me so mad. If any of you are reading this and you continue with this Trinity trend you’re dead to me, sorry, but it means a lot to me, and everybody knows how I hate it when anybody copies me, especially after the previous scandal.

Today was one of my neighbor’s birthday. These days, this family of Koreans moved into my condominum, and they study at the same school as my sister and I do, and I think Ms. Coggio knows one of them, his name is Woody.

Yesterday, Woody invited me to his sister’s birthday, which was today, and it really was a unique experience! I loved it. Their house is beautiful, and I really got to experience how it was to live in Asia, I’ll tell you step by step how it went.

First, we took our shoes near the door, and when we got in, we could see this row of flipflops and light shoes alligned at the corner of the stairs, each flipflop had its own step, in the corner near the wall. I felt like I just entered a portal into one of the anime series I loved so much, like “Cardcaptor Sakura,” she always took her shoes at the door and quickly dressed one of her flipflops whenever she was coming into her house! I looked at the entrance of the house, and soon it was time to have some lunch, so we came up to the pool, where they had the table set, full of yummy Korean food, and I gotta tell you, it was DELICIOUS, they had chicken, meat with these veggies in them, Korean yakisoba, and I got to show them my ability in eating with chop sticks! The chicken had a unique flavor, it wasn’t sweet nor salty, it was like in between salty and sweet, and it was DELICIOUS, so was the yakisoba, which had similar taste to sushi, but it still had the unforgettable taste of the typical fried noodles we all know and love, the meat was also DELICIOUS, it had these pieces of vegetables in the middle, and it was kind of “hamburger-y,” making it round and soft, I gotta tell, it was one hell of a lunch! I felt like was really in Asia! I also got to see how they lived, Jennifer’s (Woody’s sister) pillow had these little pieces in it other than feather, and it was very comfortable, her bed was very beauiful, and so was he room, she is the cutest thing, and SO lovable, she just completed 5 years of age today, happy birthday Jennifer! She really loves Aydeé (My sister), everytime she sees Aydeé, she goes to her and hugs her, it’s the sweetest thing!

I loved today, it was very nice to know a different culture, compliment the cooks on their marvelous food, and just to take a little glimpse on how they live, it’s really something special, especiall because we don’t know them very much and they still wanted us to be there in such an important day! I loved it!

I don’t know how I fell in love with Japan… Nothing in my family, here in Brazil or anything had me experience anything that would make me love it… and I have no idea how I ended up liking its culture, music, arts and food so much! (By the way, Japanese food is my favorite)

I guess it started since I was little, about when I was in 1st grade, 2nd grade and 3rd grade, I loved thoes “manga” cartoons, they were like my life, and I was always trying to draw them, and I draw “manga-styled” drawings now, so it was actually a very big influence in my projects, art and creativity, I can’t draw a normal human being, if I try, it’s ending up with huge bangs, wide eyes, small noses and a little smile, oval heads are so over. Although I don’t draw professional “manga” drawings, I consider myself to draw well, I’m also very known in school for that, Mrs. Bertram once told me: “Oh yeah, you enjoy drawing these Harajuku girls, you know, the ones Gwen Stefani likes!” and yes, I do, and I love to!

I’ve always loved japanese food, it’s inexplainable, whenever I go to a sushi bar, my father has to spend a lot of money on me, since I’d eat sushi all day long, and Yakisoba as well, it’s just so delicious, I remember Sofy and I were going to buy sushi in the internacional day when Cary was buying this meat in a stick thing, I don’t know how they call it in the US… I guess sushi-lovin’ is one more thing Sofy and I have in common!

Ah, the music, such a great part… I started loving japanese music when I was in 4th grade, like I said before, I had this game, Kingdom Hearts in which she sang a song in english, “Simple and Clean,” which originated from her japanese song, “Hikari,” and when I finally finished the game, I saw her name on the credits for theme song, I was small and didn’t have many sources of music downloading, so I only got the “Simple and Clean” song, and later, in 5th grade, I started to enjoy more of her japanese songs, in which I wasn’t previously introduced to, and I love it until today, it’s the best genre of music!

I want to thank a friend of mine, Alice, for the perfect gift she gave me, it’s this luck cat on a pillow, and it’s just the prettiest thing, it’ll be the first item coming into my room when it’s ready! I loved the gift, and you were so thoughtful! Love ya!

I guess this post answered my question on why I love it so much, and it’s also something for you to know more about me (I guess I’m in this mood after the 3-items-that-represent-me english project, well, it’s a very great part of my life and taste, and to make it a little more interesting and give you another glimpse of Japanese music, I’ll post up Utada Hikaru’s live version of the song “Passion,” which is one of my favorite representations of this song! I hope you enjoy it:

I think something should be done against little brothers and sisters. I don’t undrstand mine. Her immaturity just gets me so angry that I could just bite off her neck someday.

Once, Mrs. Herrera (I think I mentioned her before, our advisory teacher) told me that I had a very strong sense of justice, and I, not trying to show off, of course, agree with her. We were talking about some issues I had with another classmate and I told her what I thought was the situation for him/her (I won’t mention the name), I was actually very mature and I was able to show off my sense of justice. Well, today, I couldn’t be angrier with my sister, and it’s all this damn sense of justice’s falt.

My sister is too immature for 6th grade, when I was her age, I got my own good grades, I did my own homework, I did everything by myself (I think I should re-think about having “dependent” describe me). But, unlike me, she expects my mother to do all her reading, all her homework, and all everything, it’s her way of proving she wants ME to do all HER homework, she knows my mother doesn’t speak english, and the first person she’d call to help would be me. I made it very clear that I didn’t want to be her teacher, I’m in 8th grade, I have homework for the week and homework for the weekend and she expects me to tutor this lazy 6th grader. My sister should be able to at least write the word “psychopath” by now, since, until this day, it’s the word that best describes her.

When I walked into my room today, I saw all her things on top of the mattress (The mattress is the only thing in the room, because of the redecoration that’s taking place) and on the floor, were fragments of a big sticky notes block, which is purple and has lines in them, I only write special things in them, so I was saving them in this little bag that Cary gave me in third grade. My sister got half of that block of sticky notes, to throw away and leave it all on MY room’s floor, who does she think she is? I can barely enter her room, even with it having nothing in it, and she can make a living out of mine? her laptop was on the mattress, her backpack too, she unplugged my laptop to put on a radio (Come on, any person would know that a laptop plays music) and that’s not even half of what I saw, to me it was like a crime. I couldn’t stand it, as I saw the mark of whatever she was doing in the remaining block, I saw a scribble going down the page, that pissed me off even more, she wasted half a block scribbling? she WASTED my block scribbling, I swear to you, if there was a knife nearby, you wouldn’t see her in school tomorrow. I know that it’s a very childish reason to kill a sister, in which you all think is cute and innocent, funny and all, but if she’s anything at all, she’s irresponsible, immature, a hypocrite and any other word in that “genre” of words. I got everything that she had in my room, threw it out the door, and slammed the door (Of course I never threw the laptop, nor the radio) and I also felt like salvaging through all her materials and throw every purple sticky note I found, but I already slammed the door… and my outro was perfect, I seemed depressed, furious and dangerous, that’s the impression I wanted to cause, and before all the throwing and slamming, I screamed and interrupted her “homework” or whatever slacking off homework means.

Today, in school, broad daylight, Sofy, Cary and I… Sofy… Cary… *sniff* and I… were… attacked… by… MONKEYS!

As we were coming up from the cantina, we saw this string of black tamarin monkeys going up a tree and onto the roof of the elementary principal’s office building thing. We always see them and they are TOO CUTE! I love… excuse me… lovED them. We just pointed at them and said how cute they were and how “screechy” they were sounding, and at the same time, weird, they seemed like they were doing something inappropraite, but we didn’t care, we have naturally polluted minds, we knew they were just poor, innocent monkeys who prefer to hide and be cutely mysterious… we KNEW. So, going up the stairs, one of the monkeys was sitting there, innocently staring at us with its cute, round brown eyes, suddenly, it opens its tiny cute mouth and lets out this piercing “screechy” scream, and all the monkeys upon the roof surround us, and start to scream, like a ritual, and one of them jumped at us and stepped on Cary’s shoes, when he was about to do that, we screamed, so maybe that’s why he only stepped on her shoes, he got scared, maybe our screams meant that we were summoning other people, just like he/she a few seconds ago. When The Trinity screamed the teachers that were in the office after the stairs (Not the previous one, where the monkeys were) all came out of the office and witnessed the attack, Sofy and I waited there, while Cary was trying to escape from the monkey chaos, and evading a monkey on the stairs, which ran away, Sofy and I followed.

After that, we stayed nea the office, and saw the little monkey fight, three monkeys started to fight/play right in our front, it was real cute, even if the intentions of the monkeys were to rip out their interiors, it was still really cute. They seemed to have some attraction to Sofy, wherever she went, they followed her, although they didn’t dare go out of the grassy areas and into the “human territory,” they still made it clear that they were stalking Sofy.

Later on, Mrs. Herrera (Our advisory teacher) told us that she doesn’t know why the monkeys are being so hostile these days, they are usually very quiet, lonely and independent. I agree with her, they never did anything like this before, or if they have done something like this, they definetly hid their victims well… Monkeys are very similar to humans after all, but unlike us, they wouldn’t be suspects in a student kidnap, who knows, maybe monkeys are behind kidnaps, maybe Sofy, Cary and I would be the next victims! I always knew there was something weird with these monkeys…

I don’t know why, I just love Sarah Michelle Gellar. She acts in television’s best series ever, “Buffy The Vampire Slayer” and I think that’s partially the reason, the other reason is because she’s very beautiful and an amazing actress. It’s a pity that she dies in all her movies, Sofy told me that Gellar even admited that she dies in all her movies, but I must admit, from all the movies I’ve seen, her death in “I Know What You Did Last Summer” is the most annoying death EVER. I don’t know why, but I always feel sympathy towards her characters, she’s SO the best actress EVER, although, the only bad thing is that she was the only actress that didn’t want to continue with Buffy, and she would CONSIDER to act in the movie if the script was interesting enough. I wish I had all her movies, she’s such an interesting woman, who happens to act in MANY terror movies (To all of you newbies to my blog out there, terror movies are my FAVORITE movies, or “horror” is my favorite movie genre)

Here are the latest news on her:

She’s starring a new movie, to be released on 2008, the name is “Alice” and it’s based on the game, “American McGee’s Alice,” released in the year 2000. The movie’s gonna be SO perfect, it’s about “Alice In Wonderland” but it’s a dark side of the movie. In the movie, her parents die in a fire when she returns from wonderland, she becomes demented, and tries to suicide, she becomes really depressed, SO depressed that in the cover of the game, she is holding a knife, and her dress is covered in blood, the Cheshire cat is beside her, it’s a more skeletal version of him, and he’s a lot devilish and creepier. Sarah Michelle Gellar will be Alice in the movie, and even though it’ll only be released in 2008, I can’t wait! I’m so happy, I just love the way they changed the story, they changed Alice, and wonderland, and from such a happy movie, such a disturbing story was created, for more information, if you’re interested here are my sources:

For normal people: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/American_McGee%27s_Alice

For Baby C: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0466663/